19 06 2010

One of the greatest lessons I learned is that it is okay to do the things you fear.   Life is all about taking leaps and doing what may scare you but that leap of faith into the unknown may make all the difference and give your life the meaning that you seek.

There is a Jay-Z quote that has meant so much to me lately, it goes,

“So they made light of, my type a dreams seem dumb
They said wise up, how many guys a you see making it from here, The world don’t like us, is that not clear, alright but,
I’m different, I can’t base what I’m gonna be off a what everybody isn’t,
They don’t listen, just whispering behind my back,
No vision, lack of ambition, So wack!”

Some of the people I know can’t see my vision for my dreams because they dream so small.  It’s sad to feel like members aren’t on the same page as me but c’est la vie.  I still must continue to move towards my dreams. Recently I was at a political event and it was great to be around like minded people.  It really helped me remember that my dreams can come true and that those that don’t want me to do well are just jealous.  I am just happy that I am blessed with others around me that want to see me do well.  Family doesn’t have to be those with the same bloodline just those that have your back and only want the best for you.  I have many mentors and gain my inspiration from many places.  I am thankful for the love and positivity that counters the negativity.


My first taste of true freedom

17 06 2010

Wow so it has been a long time since my last post. I wish I had time to catch you up to speed but long story short I am moving at the end of the month!  I am sad to be leaving my first apartment.  This apartment was my declaration of independence, security, peace, achievement, and commitment.  Are you wondering how a 1 bedroom apartment can represent so much about the occupant?

To put it lightly, I am a commitment phobe.  I avoid committing to anything that I can, so committing to a 1 year lease gave me hives for weeks before I committed. The apartment brought independence and security because it was something that I provided for myself and no one could take it away.  It was a great achievement because it signified my hard work in school and my career to be able to take care of myself.  Most importantly, it brought peace because I could come home and not be bothered by a roommate, significant other, or family member.  I believe everyone should experience that at least once in their lives.

I learned so much during my 13 months here and will share them over the next few weeks.  For now, I should get back to packing.

Leaving is hard, but I am also so excited for what the future holds.  I won’t think about tomorrow today and today I will cherish the remaining time I have in my first place!

Post 1

4 01 2010

So I have decided to try to keep a blog of my thought and actions.  I view myself as anything but normal and believe that my life is insane but still beautiful.  I know life sometimes test us to see how much we really want something.  Right now I am trying to decide what I want to do with the rest of my life.  Do any of you feel that way?  As I blog more I am sure you will get to know more of what I am aiming for.  I hope you enjoy my journey as much as I do.